Uncensored Truth

Hello,.Lovelys,..I am Proud to say that I have started to get back into my faith and grow stronger in Christ. I started back on Monday with the kick off of the women's bible study. The book that we are getting into is Uncensored Truth by Jud Wilhite, who is our pastor as well. My "homework" for this week was to read the first three chapters. I have done the first chapter and felt the need to write down my thoughts as I begin this study. As I read, this sentence struck out to me: " Your view of God will impact every area of your life. Your view of people, of problems, of money, of work, of this life and the next". WOW!! Unfortunately, my life is very complicated due to decisions I have made. I don't have it together like other blogging christian mothers out there. I have been through it all and back. It's very hard since the decisions linger on even though that is in the past. I wish I could be an inspiration and be looked at and admired by my "almost perfect life".
I really feel that if my view of God was different and I actually had a genuine relationship with him my problems would still be there BUT at least I would be able to handle them differently without them making me an emotional wreck!! As of now, I still have questions and confusion and I just want to really dig deep and be informed and UNDERSTAND!!! I know Christ died on the cross for our sins and I'm thankful but I just want to be strong in my faith.
So, I ask for Prayers as I start my journey again and for patience that it's not going to come over night. Thank you and God Bless all of you!!

To Spank or Not To Spank?

My oh My,...I have had such a rough time with three of the four kids. They talk back to me,..they hit me,..they just are not being godly whatsoever. I have tried the corner, taking toys away, priveleges away,..and nothing works. I finally gave in to what DH and my mom said and started to spank. Yes, Spank. Ofcourse,..Im not going off just spanking them as I please. Their are rules that are to be followed and/or obeyed or that bootie is mine. It has been two day's and surprisingly their attitudes have improved I havent even needed to use it by the end of day two!! I am now a strong believer in spanking's!! Children do need to understand when mommy say's "NO" she mean's "NO". I too was like those other parents that would say that word a million times and my children still got away doing it and all I would respond was, " Well, don't do that again or else"...by then "else" nevercame and the kids knew that already. Children are not as naive as we think,..even my two year old has pulled the rug over my eyes once or twice. They learn to work us as parents to get what they want when they want. Knowing that nothing bad is gonna happen. I am not having to repeat myself twice now since they know that if mommy gets up and even thoughy they start doing what I told them to do in the first place, once Im up, they are getting a spanking because I should have not had to get up in the first place. The first day was horrible, but they are learning.

Spanking 101:

1. If I have to GET UP and you start the task I told you to after telling you twice,..too bad your getting a spanking.
2. If you talk back to us,..the first time is a warning the second is a spanking.
3. If you hit us or say bad words to us,..no warnings your getting a spanking.

Prov 13:24 "He that spareth his rod hath this son: but he that loveth him chasteneth him betimes (diligently)."

Prov 19:18 "Chasten thy son while there is hope, and let not thy soul spare for his crying."

Prov22:15 "Foolishness is boung in the heart of a child; but the rod of correction shall drive it far from him."

I will not let my child take over my household. Their will be order,..

Love my new layout will post an interesting topic either tonight or tomorrow.

The ToothFairy Fly's In

So, Wee's three front teeth were taken out,...here's what happened... Picture Mother's day , 2010 we are all at my mother n laws house. Drama FREE!! Julie ( my sister n law) and I even had a shot with the rest of the family...and then suddenly there is a loud cry from two kids with the rest of the clan following all talking at once about what happened. All I could pay attention to is the massive blood my son was gushing out from his mouth. As well as the tooth that was hanging out. Wee's cousin and him at been running and clashed and bumped each other soo hard that his teeth indented on her upper eyebrow and poor wee's teeth were done so. We took him to the E.R. they gave him Ibuprofen and told us to wait until the morning to go to the Dentist.
In the morning, we took him and they took the two front teeth plus one on the right side. :"( My poor baby, this was just a freak accident and now he is toothless. Atleast, he is about to turn 6 and his teeth wont take that long to grow back I hope!!

OH, but after all this ALL the kids Exclaimed the next day ( since we went back to mother n laws house for Mothers Day Part 2 ) how much money the toothfairy would leave him. In which, My DH and I looked at each other and were like huh? what? money? mucho?
So, we waited since it was "way to windy for the toothfairy to fly" ( we needed to save up some money for this ) oh and we did argue about this since DH said we should only give him 10 dollars. I told him are you crazy the boy lost three teeth,..I said 60 dollars should do it. Yeah, that didn't go so well. We ended up giving him only 30 dollars. I know 30 dollars is alot but I feel bad that he went thru this. I do have reasoning for this amount. There is a airplane toy he has been wanting that cost that much so now he can buy it.

So, Last night,...Wee was oh so excited asking me a bunch of questions about the toothfairy that I was just making up as the conversation went on further and he fell asleep. I wrote a note I mean the "ToothFairy" wrote him a note and snuck the money and the note under the pillow and put the teeth in a treasure chest hehehe. The Boy was over excited to see the money he didn't even care about the note but I read it to him anyway, since the "ToothFairy" wrote it to him. She even told him to be nice to his sisters lol!!

I doubt any kid will get that much money ever since I still have two left after this one. I just felt bad since it wasn't time for him to lose his teeth. He is such an awesome kid,..I love him soo much and seeing him go thru the pain and all I just want him to feel better somehow. Ofcourse, without going bankcrupt as well!!!

xoxoxDaisy

RECall on Honda,...OMG!!

Yes, I am back and hopefully for a while as my own life has literally been a real rollercoaster,...So, I got the envelope in the mail from Honda saying My Van may have a defect which it did,...due to air escaping into the brakes making the vehicle not stop as fast and cause a crash,...YEAH!! you see I was in a crash back in January and even though I rear ended the vehicle I caused minimal damaged to his car since I was soo far back and even turned but my van wouldn't stop. I knew I had not been following close and NOBODY believed me when I told them that something was wrong,...and now I get this letter which makes me giddy inside and can't wait to call the insurance company and proceed from here. The LORD is GOOD!!

New glasses!!

yay! I got my glasses today! and although I prefer contacts my eyes are loving the glasses it will be a long time until I use contacts again cuz they hurt soo bad!!! I wouldn't take them off which is not good!

anyways, I had taco bell to eat today,..3/4 of a mexican pizza plus a piece of quesadilla,...no soda yay!!!!!! but right now I need another cup of joe!!! and then keep doing the laundry and then workout!!

Also,...I got a stroller!! yay,...and it is USED and LOVING IT!!! I payed 30 bucks and it is originally 170!!! and it is in perfect condiditon a few scrapes but other than that I am happy like a cow!!!

Soul searching and energy

My rant for the day:
I have a lot of soul searching to do,..I yet to know who I am, what I like, and what my purpose is in life. I have gone thru soo much in my lifetime. I have lived my life on the fast lane. Getting married at 17 yr,..having a baby at 18 yr,... getting divorced at 19 yr,...getting remarried and children at 20 yr,...and now divorced with four kids,...25 yrs,...I feel soo old and unhappy,...this is not what I expected my life to be at this time age,...I had dreams very BIG dreams and now I am stuck in a life that my own choices and consequences have developed. I know my favorite color is purple. But aside from that I have no idea who I am? I guess I have not choosen to embrace my life so to speak..I am not a very positive person to begin with. But I know that I need to change this attitude towards life I do not want to look back and be miserable I want happinness I really do,..I want to wake up and be happy in my own skin,..be happy with my surroundings,..Im so tired of all the drama in my life,..there is no time machine I can't go back,..all I can do is move forward in my life but not like this ...

I took erik to school and now drinking my coffee,..

My Goal is to eat small portions and no more soda!!!! and no more food after 7pm and exercise today!!!